For Jade

March 27th, 2009

When my Mum first got cancer I must’ve been around the age Jade’s eldest son is now. Too young, in fact, to properly comprehend what was happening, only old enough to sense the tingling presence of fear, the averted looks, the stifled, thin lipped sympathy and muddled, neighbourly compassion. My Mum, Thank God, did not die and whilst her cancer returned several times; each time more frightening for me as my innocence waned to be replaced with dread, she lives still, so I can but imagine the sad confusion of the two bereaved boys.

I knew their Mother, Jade Goody, not especially well, but Jade’s defining characteristic was her easy warmth that ingenuously enveloped folk, so perhaps like many people I felt more engaged by her than normal and feel more saddened by her death than I ought. I dislike the fetishisation of grief that accompanied the death of Jade’s forebear, The Princess of Wales, it makes me uncomfortable as I query its sincerity. Sentimentality is often called the unearned emotion and intrusive carnivals of public mourning unsettle me. In the case of Jade Goody however it is understandable to feel morose, she was a young mum from an awful background who got a break and shrewdly capitalised on it.

For a time we shared management and we met when she came to see several shows of mine at the Edinburgh festival about five years ago. We all hung out, me my Mum, Jade, some people from the agency and a few of my mates. She was a right laugh, she joined in with everyone and created a garrulous giddy vibe in bars and cars that elevated the perfunctory time between shows into something which retrospectively seems more special now than it did then. Most of all though I was impressed with how she formed an immediate and genuinely sweet bond with my Mother, chuckling and chatting with the effortless intimacy that strong yet tender women frequently conjure and which has umbrellad me from anxiety throughout my life. She also came on a few of my dopey TV shows in later years where she filled the room with her ebullience and wicked laugh connecting with the audience in a way that most skilled showman can only dream of.

One of the charges often levelled at Jade was that she was just a normal girl with no trade or practiced skills. Well people didn’t care and our heroes are not prescribed to us, we have the right to choose them and the people chose Jade. Fame has long been bequeathed by virtue of wealth and birth and this was the first generation where it was democratically distributed by that most lowbrow of modern phenomena – Reality Television. She was a person who, I think due to her class always had the propensity to irk people. When Big Brother 3 made her famous she was vilified in the paper and bullied in the house but through her spirit she won people back round and became a kind of Primark Princess with perfumes and fitness videos and endless media coverage – because people were interested in her. They remain interested. One of my best friends, a woman in her mid twenties is genuinely heartbroken at the death of Jade, herself a Mother from a working Class background she obviously connects with this sad narrative in a way that she doesn’t seem to with J-Lo or Jennifer Aniston or Posh Spice most likely because of Jade’s authenticity and accessibility.

I was working on a Celebrity Big Brother spin off show when Jade returned to the house and through unschooled social clumsiness blundered into a whooped up race row. As I said at the time, the incident where Shilpa Shetti was poorly treated by a group of young women was not an example of the sickening scourge of racism but simply a daft lack of education. Jade was a tough girl but utterly lacking in the malice upon which true prejudice depends. The slick of spilled newspaper ink and the cathode conveyed H-bomb that followed this innocuous event was the real crime. Jade was made the focus of a debilitating wave of righteous loathing and condemnation, a gleefully indignant storm of trumped up wrath that served the cause of racial harmony not one iota; but that was never it’s intention. The intention was sacrifice. Well now Jade Goody is no more. Claimed by cancer, a disease often brought on by extreme stress. When my mother was sick someone unkindly informed me that her illness was my fault, induced by my bad behaviour and for a long time I believed it.

I’m glad that Jade’s death has been handled with saccharine mittens by the papers, she lived and died in the glare of their interest and doubtless benefited from it hugely at times. I recall her tearstained face pegged across some rag as she endlessly sought to be forgiven by the media her misconstrued conduct had so incensed and it made me a little angry. She wanted to be accepted, loved, redeemed, and now through her early death, she is. I hope some of the lessons of this modern Fairy Tale are learned, that the people who aspired to be like Jade observe the price she paid. I hope her sons are ok and that on some imperceptible level contrition is felt by the media that gave Jade Goody everything.
And I mean everything.

971 Responses to “For Jade”

  1. linda says:

    thank you Russell – beautifully written & heartfelt. Jade was an inspiration to many people, as indeed are you xx

  2. Jenn says:

    This is lovely, and so eloquent. Today is my Dad’s birthday – the first since he died after an eight-year-long battle with cancer – and so it seems especially poignant to read things like this. I think that because cancer is so commonplace it’s easy to underestimate just how messy and mortifyingly sad it is when it’s truly taken hold of someone and is effectively just gnawing away at them. I think Jade was a tremendously hard worker and was so brave throughout the duration of her illness. I really have nothing but respect for her.

  3. Emilie says:

    That is the most genuine, sincere and compassionate ‘article/blog’ that I have read since Jades tragic death. So many commentators have criticised the national outpour of grief for a lady with whom most were not acquainted but really it’s just empathy and people trying to relate to and understand the harm in a troubled life lost so prematurely. Surely empathy is the least ugly of the many human emotions. Oh how I wish I could meet you and give you a big kiss!

  4. sophie says:

    x

  5. mariesha says:

    wow, Russell, that is extremely well written, insightful and spot on. I too found it deeply sad and feel for those two little boys. I think Jade was a great inspiration for many people. She showed how to do the best you can, she wasn’t born with a silver spoon in her mouth and she made the best of the big break she got. Although she was critized for not being educated, she certainly wasn’t stupid. I watched her programme on Living TV and broke my heart each time. She came across and being incredibly down to earth and sincere. She was grateful for everything she had and I prayed for a miracle for her. Her treatment after the BB race incident was disgusting, like you said her behaviour came out of lack of education not evil.

  6. Eira Lucas says:

    A lovely sincere tribute Russell -beautifully written x

  7. RexWayne says:

    Wonderful and wise words.

  8. Lydia says:

    I completely agree, it’s really nice to hear someone sticking up for the girl. I also have been so saddened by this as she was someone we could all relate to.

    RIP Jade. xxx

  9. Hammer says:

    I have to be honest and say, a few years ago when you were doing BBLB, I thought you were just an irreverent tit with big hair.

    Following you on Twitter has revealed a pretty dammed cool side to you though, and it’s great to see stuff like this that has pushed through the arrogant comedian image.

    That said, I’m enjoying your comedy a lot more now. Keep on rocking.

  10. Victoria says:

    Russell
    You have such a beautiful way of expressing yourself.
    I too was heartbroken by Jades story and followed it closely. She touched me by the strenth, love and class that she possessed in her hour of need.
    She showed her true character, and it was beautiful.
    I think she would be truly touched by what you have so wonderfully written.
    Victoria x

  11. janecell says:

    Bravo. x

  12. jonro99 says:

    Nicely written and truly heartfelt, but what about the ‘ordinary’ people who suffer these tragic losses, where is thier recognition. They too leave behind a void in there own social and familial circles.

  13. Russellutionist says:

    What a touching tribute Russell, I haven’t cried so much from someone’s lovely, sensitive and inspiring writing. Jade was simply misunderstood and my thoughts are with all her family at this time. Jade will always be in my heart. Our primark princess did well. xx

  14. Kerry says:

    Beautifully written and very heartfelt x

  15. Fabienne Payet says:

    Very well written and I’m crying as well. I never knew Jade personally but I really did care for her, she was a great girl no matter what others said about her.

    I wish I could give you a cuddle seems like you might need one.

    A friend of my mom was recently diagnosed with breast cancer and has just begun chemo a few days ago. This disease is touching and destroying more lives than it ever should.

    All the best to your mom

    Big hugs to you and your mom

    Fabienne xxx

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